I realized that I was dead inside
When I didn’t feel happy for,
Achieving the “best happiness of my life”
No sense of accomplishment, no sense of joy.
Endless anhedonia in an infinite void.
I was assured of never feeling anything again.
Well, I was wrong, I could still feel the pain.
The pain of fake rumors left me with real wounds.
I was afraid, I kept hiding it thinking the world is cruel.
One more drop was added to the sea today.
And when I thought I was going to die,
My pain burst me to life.
I was exonerated by someone.
She lifted me up gently and lovingly.
The world might be cruel, but she is a kalon
I found a mothership in an unknown sea.