Midnight Memories

Every night when reality hits me hard in chest

And I wake up all sweaty and breathless.

My mind warns me that you are about to go

And then realizes you are already gone.

 

My fight begins with my brain,

As I try to sleep again,

To be in a world, where you still exist,

Where you still laugh, where you still live,

Where I still love, where I still feel,

Where time still sleeps and we still dream.

But my head never heeds

To my wounded soul’s plead.

 

Now as I am looking at night’s beaded sky,

I wish I could ask for one more try.

One more chance to love you right,

One more chance to drown and then fly.

I remember how I wished when you were about to go,

If I could have one more second to live, some more sand to hold,

Few more smiles to make before I let my tears flow.

But you never looked back you never came home.

 

I never felt so helpless.

I have never felt this loneliness.

I am losing my mind and balance.

It’s not living anymore, it’s just and existence.